It’s Sunday morning, so like usual I am playing catch up on my blog.  Thursday was amazing and challenging in so many ways.  I woke up at ten and it took me almost three hours to get Soul out of bed.  It didn’t help that every time I woke him up, he would ask what time it was and I would say noon.  I kept  getting my timezones mixed up, so he thought no time had passed.

He finally gets up, we gets dressed and takes me into town.  It’s hard to believe how many beautiful girls there are here.  At first we are just strolling and getting used to the insanely cold weather.  But after a few hours of chilling and chatting, he starts opening sets.  For some  reason it appears to be Mother-Daughter thursday.  The first set he opens he has me walk up with him.  The girl is really stunning, but her mother is having none of it.  He really plows through and we are standing there for a good five minutes.  I just keep turning redder and redder.  I am so far outside my comfort zone.

We finally leave and go into a few more shops searching for belts.  My belts are now too big again and my jeans from LA are falling off.  I bought them three weeks ago!  I mean it’s great to be losing weight, but all y newest cool clothes won’t stay on my body.  GRrrrrr.  I checked out a scale and it sait i was 78 kg, but I think the scale is a little broken.  I will get a proper reading next week.

We bust into our next set and it’s a mother-daughter set again.  This time the girl is super tall and skinny.  She’s 19, so it’s not nearly as awkward.  I of course have to bring some Paladin level winging to the table and chat to the mom for what seemed like centuries, but turned out to be a mere ten minutes.  I just built massive rapport with her as we had tons of things in common.  Soul got the girl’s number and set up a group date for that night.  It was really impressive and pushed both of us outside our comfort zone.  There are so many things that stop us when they don’t need it.

So Soul has been opening for a while and I really need to step up.  I am having crippling AA and I keep trying to break through it.  I go into some shops and run my indirect jazz on the girls there.  I have no problem doing this, but it doesn’t affect my total fear of going direct.  Finally Soul calls in a local dude to join us.  He is just an opening machine.  Soul talks to him before he meets me.  The first thing the dude says to me is ok, let’s start asking girls the time.  It was super humbling.

I was like I’m not that bad, I’ve done this before I’m just having a super off day.  So we roll into a huge shop that is now also my favorite club.  He keeps opening sets with me and walking away.  Really helping me out in a cool way.  The funny thing is that he keeps opening the set next to the one I like.  We joked about that later.  It doesn’t really matter.  Because we are in a shop, I start running tons of indirect sets and having a really lovely time.  I escalate harder than I normally do and really push for a close on one girl that is clearly massively attracted, but it just doesn’t happen.  At least I pushed.

We walk around some more and finally with Soul and this dude, I open a girl direct.  She was stunning and I could taste my fear.  Her eyes lit up when I told her shew as beautiful.  It was so hard but so amazing.  I stayed on course and started finding logistics and trying to move forward.  She dropped the boyfriend bomb on me and finally left, but at least I moved forward.  Soul gave me a huge hug and I felt better.