I have been so busy teaching lately that I simply haven’t posted on this very much. I have had a ton of adventures that I thought were worthy of writing about swirling in my head, but now that I’m here sitting in front of a movie and relaxing after a brutal session of Guitar Hero bass playing on hard, I simply can’t think of the best one to write about.
So I’ll talk about how my life has changed. I just remembered.
I have been teaching at a small East London tutoring school for the past 6ish weeks. I might have mentioned when I started but I’m not totally sure. Anyways, the lady running the place is really dishonest. At a level that I found astounding. Of course as with any job it takes a few weeks to cotton on to what’s going on. They are supposed to pay every Saturday, one week in arrears. As of right now I have only been paid for one weeks work.
The woman always makes excuses about forgetting the time sheet or that she doesn’t have her check book and will wire the money to my account when she gets home. I asked her several times to pay me right before Christmas so that I could buy presents etc. She owes me around 500 pounds. That is a lot of money to men. It really is. That’s a month’s rent! I mean really. People wonder why I maintain a bunch of non-related jobs. It’s so I can endure people like this.
Anyways. After she kept not paying me I decided that jig was up. I went in Monday to demand the money owed to me. We had a conversation that lasted about 5 minutes. She lied probably 20-25 times. She lied about how long I’d worked there. She even actually claimed to have paid me before Christmas. I was like ya a month before. Stop lying. She said she would write me a check but I couldn’t deposit it til Wednesday. Then she asked me to teach one final class. Which obviously she would never pay for. I said fine like a fool. Then she suddenly said she didn’t have the time sheet and still expected me to work her free lesson. I was like I don’t feel comfortable working in this place. She actually couldn’t believe I would quit. She tried to explain that they pay monthly and she hadn’t paid ANYONE for Christmas. I was like telling me you lie to all your employees isn’t endearing. Plus the pay sheet is weekly. I did initial it once.
But this post isn’t about my bitterness towards. I really don’t care. I mean I need the money, but I know I will endure. The point is that I went in and confronted her. To be totally revealing here, I hate this type of confrontation. With bosses etc. I am not exactly sure why, but I am hoping to dig into it during an NLP course in the very near future. What I do know is that my heart was racing when I rode the train out there. Even outside the building I almost turned back. There was a part of me that was like just forget it. Delete her number and accept your losses. Even if this horrible lady doesn’t pay me, I feel stronger. I went WAY outside my comfort zone.
I texted all of my friends while I was waiting. I was having so much anxiety. It reminded me of the AA I got last year when I started. I still get hit that hard these days during day game a lot, but I am used to it, so it’s not as visceral. It was so think I couldn’t try to face it. I just did what I had to do.
I will let you know if she actually pays me on Friday like she promised. Before I left she was trying to say that she owed me 1 weeks work instead of 1 month. I honestly just want people like that as far away from me as possible. There is nothing I dislike more than dishonesty. It’s a sticky thing in my opinion.
And if it costs me a few hundred pounds to escape that kind of karma then I am happy. I have a lot of flaws but dishonesty is not one of them. I mean I do lie. I wish I didn’t. I usually do it when I am avoiding making somebody angry or upset with me. Especially when I’m talking to my dad about money. I mean I am wAYyyy better than I used to be. But I just hate feeling like I failed to him.
On an upward note I have a ton of new game students and so far that work is going really good. All of my former students from the past 2 months are my friends and they are all getting really good and having better lives. That’s what I really want. So I still have income coming in. I am really close to getting a bigger loan for being a student. As the stress of school is enough for me. I want that to be my main priority.
Anyways I’m digressing. I hope that what you learn from this is that even the first thing we learn in game, facing down our approach anxiety, can be very powerful. Learning to face our fears or deal with our fears, or however you want to phrase it is powerful and useful.
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