So all my workouts got deleted from my phone. I can’t seem to find one program that will let me enter my weightlifting routines and how much weight x reps i do each time. To graph out my progress. I have one that will jsut keep track calories in and out of me. And one that will let me put in a routine but not keep track of past lifts. How annoying is that? God I wish someone would write this simple program for me. I mean I love lifting, but I can never remember how much I lifted last time. And sometimes, I have a dip in weight. So I want to keep steady track of all of this. I don’t want to have to do it all by hand. That would be too much, plus I sweat like a bastard when I work out. Anyways, I tore it up in the gym today. I feel like I’m getting stronger and going nuts at the farmer’s market last Friday was the right move. Having a buttload of vegetables in the fridge really motivates me to eat them. Delicious! I feel my body changing, but I want to make sure it’s not all psychosomatic you know?

PS I watched this weeks episode of Peep Show, while I was working on 5 other things. I couldn’t resist. God damn it was funny.

So I’m still trying to learn to fill my days. I am suddenly super into dancing again. I have already gotten some good feedback on my dancing from the forums and facebook. I am pretty pleased. I am now in the process of getting these training videos onto my phone. It is not easy. I have to download them and then convert them to a format my phone can save. Youtube on my phone wants me to constantly re-download the videos. How dare they! But anyways, I am super into this dancer. I mean my tutting is already insane compared to 24 hours ago. There are 4 videos in that series and I’m only halfway through the first one. I really need to start working on footwork. That has always been my biggest area of weakness and I need to sort it out you know? I just took a shower and I’m finally clean. And of course I feel like shooting another video. What the hell is wrong with me? Stickler just told me the mask looks creepy, but what can I do? I think I will record me just tutting to see how that looks for now. Check out this inspirational vid!!!

So this morning I woke up and it is dreary outside. It’s a bank holiday so I am not sure if the gym is even open. How lame am I? Anyways, there is no way i’m running in the rain to a closed gym. So I have to workout here and this is good new for you. I was readong on LSS that there are a coupla guys into liquid, so I got motivated to record some footage. So I threw on my harlequin mask and my ufos and got busy. I am dancing to a cd of me djing, which is like double strange. Check this playaS!

The hardest part is how unnatural it all is. To dance for a camera by myself and hope that none of my house mates walk in and see how weird it looks! But really I wasn’t in top form. I was out late last night. As you know from my FR below. I am sweating so much right now. I really need to practice more. It’ enjoyable cardio. I tried to throw in some tutting. I did some test videos without the mask that looked great, so I hope this one turned out. I mean I will keep doing this all day, so whatever video I have put in here is the best one!

OK. It is still uploading to youtube. I compressed the video myself, but it is almost 10 full minutes long. I like a lot of it. But I was trying out some moves that just came off rough. I am definitely wearing the wrong kind of shoes too. I hate that squeaking as much as you. I just tried to record some more and my camera battery died! I am sweating so damn much, but I think it’s really good. If you are my facebook friend, you can see the videos I recorded before I thought to put on my mask. HA!

So I have been stretching out my wrists all day and decided to give it another go before I go out. I can do the first half of the sequence but my wrists are sore as hell. Damn! The price of dancing. I wanna work on some footwork moves too, but my room is carpeted. I will try to figure out a way to put some videos on my phone so I can practice at the gym. Maybe this dude has a podcast or something. Anyways, not watching TV is brutal. I mean I’m all bored, which sucks, but it totally forces me to work more. Fortunately, I’m going out in 40 minutes. If I were a girl, I could just start getting ready now! Well I can’t find anything that I can download yet. I think there is a way to go to youtube from my phone, but can it save the video in there? I don’t wanna download it away from my wlan you know? Anyways, I highly recommend building up hobbies. I am developing some theory on hobby pillars that I will post soon.

Ok. It’s beautiful out. Last night was massive as you can see from my fr below. I feel a lil groggy but overall not too bad. I just wanna lie on my ass and watch tv. I have all the episodes of Lost sitting on my computer, but f that! I am gonna go to the park and study Japanese. I really don’t wanna lose my skill again. It’s weird how life can totally change. I am forced to be more productive! I need to get back into a gym routine, but I will start that tomorrow ok? I know I need to be more vigilant and I am definately cutting a corner, but a little vitamin d could really hit the spot right now! Anyways, it is only the 2nd day of no tv and already I’m way more productive. Unforunately, that means I’m mostly blogging about not watching tv, HA! God I wonder if people reading this can detect my sense of humor. Lots of people that haven’t met me yet can’t tell that I’m joking a lot. So if you haven’t met me yet, let me just tell you that I am funny. hA! I also need to do some routine review at the park today. My problem isn’t really lack of knowledge or routines, it’s more an in-field problem. It really is that I just need to run more sets. Stickler told me the other week I need about 50 more good sets, but I think to get to the level I desire I need to run about 1000 more? I mean I did like 10-15 last nite, I can’t even bother to count. I am still trying to remember that the first 2000 sets don’t count. It’s all practice. I mean the one girl I was really interested in last night, is the one I didn’t get a pic with and I didn’t successfully close. Failure to isolate. I think for now I am really going to try to over-isolate as much as I can. To see where the wall is.

Ok. I really love searching for knowledge but I am always then too lazy to study. What an issue. Anyways, I found a sick instructional video that I am going to work on for this week. I think I might put a mask on and post some videos of me popping. That might really put some pressure onto me? Anyways, this Korean dude totally brings the noise. His section on tutting is what I’m going to work on this week. The middle, in front of the body, section is exactly what I was last working on when I basically stopped dancing a few years ago. Basically, I haven’t practiced in like 4-5 years. Just because no one around me was into dancing or at my level, so I wasn’t inspired to improve. But Soul is a good popper and Stickler has a wicked slide that I am super jealous of, so now I am getting back into it. Anyways, he is calling 2 things 1 thing imho. Where I come from we call the part I’m interested in boxes and then the really Egyptian stuff tutting. But I can see how the way he does it is all tutting. Anyways, this is exactly what I am interested in right now.

Oh ya, and I just got a sick harlequin mask yesterday so maybe I will start posting videos!

So now I am totally into learning to pop. I have a massive bay window and some people have already caught my doing liquid in my room. I’m listening to my favorite dj and cleaning and I am just hitting a groove! Anyways, I am trying to find the best instructional videos on youtube. I think that Eric is the best liquid dancer and it seems that Mr. Wiggles is the king of pop? I have heard of him before, but have you? Check out this killer video.

What do you guys think? I wanna like really expand my dancing. It’s a great exercise. Once I move into London, I will try to find a good dance studio. But for now it’s practicing in my room for me!

I’m already going through withdrawals. How insane is that? I just did my first Japanese lesson in like 6 months and I’m sitting here wicked bored. I am into that pain phase for reals. What is wrong with me. My tv problem was worse than I thought. I have a malaise. I have a feeling there are going to be a lot of posts like this coming your way!!! I mean I am more productive than ever. I vacuumed for the first time in a month, cleaned the bathroom, and started to clean my room. But now I’m twitchy and my stuff is all just on my bed. Welcome to the inside of my mind!! Anyways, I will keep this up. I need to have an uncluttered mind. Another thing I’m thinking about a lot is headphones when I walk through town…I mean I’m mostly listening to the Howard Stern show so that I’m heavily distracted, but it also massively affects my state. I can’t jump from that mode to street opening………a lot to think on but I can’t give up more things from my life just yet!

So I have been thinking lately of a time when I was 18. It was the end of my senior year and I really wanted to focus, so I could graduate. I heard a story of a man who had commited one massive act of violence and changed his life forever. After his act, he learned 5 languages and changed his life. He one day got so sick of being empty, that he smashed his tv. I also read a fascinating book at the time called Amusing Ourselves to Death. This book really talks about how watching TV can lower a persons intelligence and life prospects significantly. I really changed my life during that time, went to the gym a lot and was in pretty good chape. Of course eventually I started watching TV again.

I am thinking of giving up TV again. It will free up massive amounts of time in my life that I am just wasting. I mean I am pretty productive right now in some areas of my life, but I could be better. But right now I am thinking of all the shows I will miss and how much I want to know what happens. But why do I attach value to meaningless entertainment? I have been up for over 2 hours today and all I have done is play video games and watch TV. Now there is nothing inherently wrong with entertainment. But my room is still a mess. I need to clean it, I need to sort out a ton of files on my computer, arrange a party tonight for Stickler’s birthday, empty the dishwasher, put away some laundry, read up on hired-gun game, go to the gym, go to the park, record shop, look for more jobs, work on sorting out a work visa………. You get the idea.

I want to be so much more productive than I am. If you guys are keeping track, this is my 100th post! So I need to do something special. So, here it is. I am not going to watch any TV for the next 8 weeks. I am not going to watch any movies on my computer, unless it is on a date. I think adding this change to my life will really move me forward. I am also not going to play Civilization during this time. There is something about that game that makes days disappear for me. It needs to stop. This process is all about change and excising the bad things from our lives. I need to spend more time writing music and doing things that I love and will be proud of. This is a really hard decision for me, since there are some shows I’m really into on tv right now, but growth demands sacrifice. As they say, pain is weakness leaving the body. It’s time to let the weakness out of my mind!