So for the past month I have had a girlfriend. I was so into her that I stopped writing posts about my dating life. It's weird how I can care about someone enough to respect their privacy. When I basically live without any myself.
I have been back in my hometown for a week now. I'm a little hesitant to say where I am, because I have some internet stalkers on a few weird forums who have been talking about my family etc. So for now I'll let you guys figure it out.
Anyways I think about my x like every day. It's really strange because technically we are broken up. But in my heart I just miss her so bad. Now at least I know that I am capable of loving someone. The thought of eternal monogamy is pretty terrifying though. But I guess I'll figure it out. Just not quite yet….
This is probably the best movie for people in the scene. It is simply amazing. It really shows the way a guy can interact with his oneitis, the way he controls her without realizing it, the ways to escape your past and the power of friendship.
I hate the title of this movie and that kept me from watching it for a long time. It is designed to catch the attention of teenage girls and I believe that is the intended audience for the movie, but the film is simply awesome. I am not going to break down the plot there. The truth is you will either trust me and watch this movie or not. It still blows my mind how many guys want to get good with women, yet refuse to watch The L Word. I have been screaming the name of that show for a full year now. I bet you haven’t watched a single episode have you? I don’t think anyone should be allowed to complain about escalation until they have watched at least 3 seasons. It’s simply necessary.
But this movie is amazing at showing the power friendship can play in social dynamics. The sweetness of this movie is really inspiring. If you want to really understand how relationships blossom in a dynamic way, watch this movie. It is really powerful and moving. You will learn a lot about all of the other prerequisites of game too, don’t worry. It has a ton of frame control, shit tests and locational comfort.
Like I said, I watched this movie for the 2nd time last night. There is about 20 minutes I would like to cut out of the movie, as one character is just really annoying to me. But I skip through her scenes and it’s fine now. I think the most powerful lesson comes from the last lines of the movie. The girl says “Are you sad that we missed it?” and the boy responds with “We didn’t miss it. This IS it.”
He is so right. Often we are so unable to live in the moment as we focus on what isn’t happening in our lives. Concerts are awesome. I love them. I go all the time. What is really important is the emotions we share and the impact we have on the world. I recommended this movie on the London forum recently. Something tells me a lot of guys are missing this amazing movie. And that is a shame. Because this is it.
So after she snuck out while I was asleep, I was uncertain about seeing the Czech girl again. I wasn’t even sure if I would ever hear from her again. So I threw her a text to see if she was ok, made it home etc. She texted back that she hadn’t wanted to wake me while I was sleeping. I told her that was really sweet and I left it there. I think we all know why she didn’t wake me up. It was a damn prison break.
So I texted her again a day later here and there and I set up a date for monday night after a short 1on1 with a student. We met at 9 and had a single drink in a bar. We chilled and it was nice. Unfortunately, I finally run into the Italian girl I saw a few weeks ago when I’m with this girl. The Italian girl is so beautiful and I can see the jealousy in her eyes. I don’t know if that set is dead, but I am trying to avoid gaming one girl while on a date with another. I mean a guy has to have SOME limits don’t he? [More]
In one night I gained access to a new social tier and I had an amazing date with a really sweet girl. It was awesome. The promoter I met through High Roller hit me up this week and invited me to Jalouse. He said could have the run of the table with 3 friends if I bring 10 girls. I text my man Mr M and he says let’s do it. So me, him and Daxx decide to rock out. We end up rolling up with more than 30 girls. The girl running the line LOVED me. It was so badass.
All the guys at the table loved me and texted me within 24 hours. I have some new really cool contacts in London and Brighton now. Basically rich cool guys who seem to like hot women. Go figure. The night was awesome and now I have access to another club that is member’s only except for this one promoter. It’s so cool to make friends. And not have to spend cash to get there. [More]
It took 2 weeks of high angle text game to get a date out of the Author. She has amazing blue eyes that pierce right through me. I made some serious tactical mistakes in setting up the date, that will reveal themselves throughout the story. I finally got the date when she said to meet up on Friday. Of course Friday morning I read my man Tenmagnet’s post on Dating Amushes. This is one of the best articles on dating and date mistakes I’ve read in AGES. I should not have let her set the date for Friday night. It messed up my chance to meet and chill with the legend, Zan.
So we meet up at 7pm on a Friday night. She looks amazing, except for she is rocking a mustache. This is my personal pet peeve for women. I have have really been paying attention since this date and a LOT of women are rocking cookie dusters. I try to ignore these things, but damn hers was pretty much a Tom Selleck situation.
To be honest I was able to put it aside and plow through the date. I don’t really have the strength to go through moment by moment of what happened. Basically she spent the whole night picking at my frame. I am used to major frame assault and tests. Waht I am not used to is this tactic. For example, when we went into the 2nd bar of the night I didn’t offer to pay for her drink. I just don’t roll like that. The girl has a high paying mayfair job and can support herself. I don’t pay for a girl as it sets the wrong frame. I don’t mind doing rounds like normal people. [More]
Easy to say, but let’s be honest – Hard to do! If you can overcome jealousy, it will change your life. Don’t be fooled into thinking I have conquered jealousy, but I have certainly beaten it back. A few years ago I was a level-1 jealous dude. I hated anyone who talked to my oneitis. It was a deep fiery rage. I thought she was banging all these dudes behind my back. (of course she actually was….)
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So I have been seeing a Welsh girl for a few weeks. Think I’ve mentioned her a few times. She doesn’t kiss til the 3rd date. After our 2nd date she stopped returning my texts. It took me a full week to notice. So I sent her a message asking if she’d stopped returning my texts. I didn’t feel anything.
A few years ago I would have stressed over every single unreturned text. Now I send out a couple hundred messages a week to girls and mates, so one can slip through the cracks. It takes me a long time to notice if someone is actively trying to pull away.
No idea why it ended with her. I wish I could say that I cared, but I’m already on to the next girl. It’s kind of a shame how girls become so replaceable after a time. If I leave my house I meet someone beautiful. I don’t know if this is a good or a bad thing. I don’t pursue relationships like I used to.
I spent several hours last night updating my NLP with Bugsy Malone. We went through a ton of deep issues and I learned things that I did not know about myself. The whole process was really amazing and I have a couple of things to work on this week that will move me closer to my destination. I am going to start making a list of accomplishments in my life. These will become chapters in my new book. I am also going to prioritize my goals list for this year. I am going to do both of them today hopefully. I have a meeting with Jamie in an hour. He is my NLP guru, so I am looking forward to it. [More]
Today I was feeling a little down. The bank is taking ages with my student loan check and it’s messing up my finances you know? So I was on the phone with the whole bank. It’s been three weeks and they said it could be another five. Had to talk to my dad on the phone. Anyways, it will sort out. Then I was talking to one of my friends from Austria and it reminded me of how they made me paranoid about my body. And then a girl pops online.
I met a smoking hot girl with Stickler a full year ago. It was the first time I met Sheriff and I remember every detail of the set. The girl was insanely beautiful and we were working her and her friend. Then her boyfriend came back. I just ignored her and talked to him. We even got some pics of all three of us. I got her facebook and emailed her. She is one of the hottest girls I’ve met in the last year. [More]
I got a call Saturday night from Bugsy asking me if I’ll be his volunteer on the final day of his nlp prac course. I am of course into trying new things so I go along. I didn’t realize til I got there that I would be working with a stranged. I picked an older lady because she looked like my friend Yad and also I wanted to work with someone really different from me. I’m all about changing my life and doing things that are challenging as much as possible.
So I have to come up with a problem I want to work on using nlp stuff. I try to think of a problem to work on that isn’t totally game related. I decided to pick something really challenging that I think about a lot. Why not? It’s all or nothing. I told her about how I am really working on releasing my body issues. I thought it would be relevant since I was going to mexico the next day. I’m on the flight writing this on my little computer right now. So I told her 2 issues I want to break through. The main one is feeling fat. I want to become totally one with my body and not care if i’m fat or skinny. To just feel it as irrelevant. I also want to break through the barrier that keeps me from going to the gym as much as I should. After I ran 5km on monday, I didn’t go to the gym the rest of the week. I feel like I have this psychological block that triggers whenever I hit a certain weight. I don’t push myself that final level to get the body I want.
We did a ton of time line therapy, which is really emotionally draining. I won’t go into too many details, but we went back to the first moment I felt fat and talked through the emotions and the things I should have known back then as a child. We did this for a long time and I think I feel better today. We also talked about how I get mad when people call me fat. I got furious when a girl in class called me fat last week. So she wanted to do another time regression thing to the first time I ever got angry.
So more marching along that timeline. It was a real bastard. At first I couldn’t think of that moment and it all felt cloudy. In the end we got there and worked through it. I am supposed to not be as angry about stuff anymore. We did a future timeline thing to test if stuff was working. I was supposed to think of something that would make me angry, so I imagined my best friend banging my oneitis. And I got super furious. She was like I guess this isn’t working. Then I told the main teacher what I was imagining and she was like, no you’re supposed to get angry at that! Try something tamer. So I thought about peopl making me wait at ticket gates on the underground. I felt disconnected from my anger.
This whole thing is supposed to take a long time for change to happen so I guess I will see. I am not believing or disbelieveing. I’m in a state of simply not knowing yet. I hope it works. I will see how things go in mexico. So far I just feel really mellow. This morning I was really stressed about being late for my plane. Every train on the way to the airport was late. I wasn’t nearly as stressed as I normally get. And I didn’t get angry. I do hope that I can get even more mellow. I’m definitely more interested in quality nlp than ever. I like the parts that are focused on self improvement and improving connections with people. It’s much more interesting than the nlp stuff some guys teach that is focused on getting girls. I really don’t need that help right now. I want to improve me.
We did a 3rd exercise to help me get through that barrier keeping me from going to the gym enough. So we did a drill to give me a motivation trigger. It seemed cool, but I don’t know if it worked yet. I really hope so. The lady asked me to tell Bugsy about my progress and he’ll let her know.
Overall it was a really good experience. I learned a lot and it was so emotionally draining and challenging. I think it was really good and I’m glad that he picked me to be his assistaant. Unfortunately, I had to rush off to see Watchmen, so I didn’t get to talk with him as much about it. I think that’s ok. I need a little more time to work through my emotions and experience. Anyways, I recommend exploring nlp as a path of self-improvement. I like that aspect of it.
