
Saturday I finished my dissertation while October slept. I actually slept really good on his couch. Go figure. I mean I honestly had a pretty good time last night and some of that stuff was really funny. Obviously I would have preferred to get my dick wet, but I am all about enjoying the journey. [More]
I was sitting at home after my night in the brothel and hitting Movida with gsand. I was thinking about how sick I am of finishing my bastard dissertation and I was like fuck it. So I called October and was like I’m thinking of coming to Cambridge to see whats up. 2 hours later I was on the train with my little eee pc. I worked on my diss like crazy.

We chilled at his house for like 2 hours or something then headed into town. I ended up meeting the whole Cambridge lair. It was like I have heard about other lairs. The guys stood in a circle all night without doing any sets. At one point I did get a guy to open a set. He ended up pointing at me at some point, which I saw coming. I came over and instantly the friend liked me. I don’t know what that dude said but her friend suddenly was like we have to leave NOW. [More]

The biggest stress of Global Gathering was getting in. You are trapped in a huge press of sweaty people all carrying a weekends worth of gear and chanting to be let in. Whoever designed the gate policy was an idiot. If they had searched every person, like they were doing at first, it would have taken 2 full days to let everyone in. The police seemed totally focused on finding people who had small personal quantities of gear and taking them away. Super boring. I mean is it really a good use of a police dog?
Once we got through the whole security thing it was much smoother. None of us were even searched in the end. They just started letting people through in waves. Throughout the weekend I ran into probably 20 dealers. Holy crap dealers in this country are creepy as fuck. I mean they all seemed like child molesters or worse to me. And the police behavior probably forced a lot of people to keep these dudes in business.
Once we got through and set up our 3 tents, things were ok. Lady Jaye took over my tent. So I was going to have to share with YumYum. We all changed and chilled out a little bit. Needed to relax to recover from our longass car journey. That was beyond brutal. We thought it was take around 2 hours, but it took closer to 4. On the way we discovered that YumYum sucks at giving directions. It took us ages to find him and we ended up trying to go through the gate at a military base. That was a little disconcerting.
He didn’t even have a tent or any supplies. So we hit the Argos near his house. We somehow managed to leave Argos with the cheapest tent in the universe and a giant Stormtrooper helmet. That was fun since I wore it most of the way to the festival. I learned that a lot of people in the UK are so lame. So many average looking girls gave us dirty looks. But some cool people waved and YumYum even passed a beer to a car passing us. [More]

So I am chilling on Saturday morning and my phone starts blowing up. gsand wants to meet near Waterloo for some day game and Tea Bag is going into central for some costume shopping. I throw on my clothes, get wicked high and meet gsand. It takes ages to find him. We meet up with 7/11 after a bit too. Walking up and down the boardwalk for two hours, no hotties. Bad luck. [More]
So last night I was on my 2nd date with the German. She went home due to a miscommunication, so I went back to the lesbian bar. But I’m getting ahead of myself.

Part 1
I meet up with the lesbian I went out with last fall in Leicester Square. She has 2 girls with her. One is a sexy blond she is trying to bang and the other is that girl’s friend. A freckly, young brunette. They are all gay, so I just chill and don’t think about game etc. We hit up a mixed gay club and find a little spot to toss down a few drinks. I chat to the blond some and talk about being dating coach. She is a writer and will hopefully take me to an opera. We go for a dance and we start grinding like crazy. Mostly to torture my friend. [More]
Last night was another classic rave night with my club crew. YumYum, Iceberg and I hit up Hidden in south London for a free hard house party. Yums had some reservations about the party being full of shaved head troublemakers and I had a feeling there would be good vibes and cute girls in cute costumes. Turns out we were both right. There were a lot of creepy people there, but also a lot of cool ones. The tunes were hard as hell and more than I could normally deal with, but I took a pill and it all worked out in the end.

Everyone was in a really friendly vibe and we just had a good time. About an hour into the party I see two beautiful girls on the dancefloor right next to the decks, just going for it. Now since I am really into dancing, I am into freedom of expression. When people just dance to dance. That is my scene. My home. So these girls were exaclty the kind of girls I got into game to meet. I’m focused on my boys though, so we have a proper stomp kinda near the girls and then we drift away without thinking about it…. [More]
Friday night I finally made it to Ministry for a massive trance night. I assembled a good crew with all the essential elements. I headed down with Freedom of Speech, Iceberg and YumYum. We went out to see my favorite DJ in the world, Markus Schulz. And he did not disappoint. He really tore it up and I had an amazing time. I was so deep under water. It was good to get so fucked again. It had really been ages. I didn’t talk to a single girl all night. It was such a change of pace. I really didn’t want to. It was so nice and I was just super introverted and having an amazing time. I danced and just tore it up all night until dawn. The crowd was a little strange and it was the first time I failed to connect with anyone on the dance floor. I have a lot of thought on this, but I really don’t care. I was there for me and I had a killer time with some new dudes. I’m glad I have a new clubbing crew. I see a lot more badass nights for us in the future.
It really helped me to tighten up my inner game to do something I love and not need any other people. For ages at one point I stood next to Freedom while he hooked up with some girl. And I felt a total lack of emotion. I was totally unaffected, by interest or anything else. I felt like I was one with myself and I was reminded of how much fun I can create within my own universe. It really clicked with what I have been learning from the Blueprint this week.
I know I have been remiss in posting. I have been insanely busy this week. But this story is worth telling. Right now it’s 9am on a Saturday and I have no idea why I’m still awake. Well I just woke up and I have the beginnings of a blazing headache. Also I’m still pretty drunky. WHoa
So last night I had a 2on1 and then afterwards I met up with 3 guys and 4 girls and we went to a posh club. Now the club was too small and the people inside weren’t really posh. I was wearing jeans and a skinny tie and I was overdressed. Weird.

So my friend brought me (and I brought the other 2 dudes) to mainly distract this one girl, who he’s already been with, while he’s on a date with another girl. I love taking care of my friends and hot girls so it was a win win. I mean this girl was insanely beautiful. So I’m chatting to her and right away she asks about my job, so I just tell her I’m like Hitch. Which is true since I help people find love and I’m a romantic at heart. The problem with this of course is that once I tell a girl thise, she tries to be even more gamey. Like I need that! [More]
Since Thursday I have been texting the hell out of the models I met. Especially the black girl, HBTyra. She was everything I’m looking for in a girl this month. Just really tall. She is also really beautiful and texting me back all the time. I didn’t manage to get a picture with her the other day, but I remember thinking she was cute.

I talk her into coming to my party, even though she doesn’t know anybody. She ditches all her model friends and agrees to come alone. We texted back and forth a ton Friday night, but we never actually met up. We were in different bars etc. I just ignored everytime she didn’t answer a text and assumed progression. I really worked my numbers this weekend harder than I ever do in London. [More]
So I just came home nearly crying and had the girl I went out with screaming and crying into her phone at me. It’s nice to know that things can still explode all over my face. Even at my level, life can end in tragedy. As soon as I start having feelings for a girl everything changes. Sigh…

All I want is to retire. I can’t stop talking about it lately. I’m finally so close to doing well with nice girls that I just want to get a really cool girlfriend and step off the dance floor for a while. Unfortunately, every time I open up a little to a girl or become emotionally vulnerable, I just get burned. It hurts. I can’t get past that. I’m still human with a little heart beating inside of my chest. [More]