There is nothing quite like a woman scorned.  The irony is that i didn’t scorn anyone.  As I wrote a while back my ex girlfriend broke up with me about 2 months after we had already broken up.  I tried to explain my inability to have a long distance relationship and I guess I just wasn’t clear.  I don’t know how that happened.  But later she read about it on my blog and was somehow totally surprised.  She knew about it from when we were dating, so I didn’t think anything was a surprise.

I don’t even have any posts about our relationship on here.  I originally wrote a post about our first night together, but I took it down when I realized that I was having real feelings for her.  But I guess that’s neither here nor there.

After breaking up with me in a vicious email which ended in her calling me a pervert, she a week later let me have it on im.  I really wish I could feel sad about the loss of our relationship, but for me it was already over.  It ended when we broke up the first time.  She sent me one final email asking me to delete the host of naked pictures of her I have.  I don’t really look at them anymore, but come on.

A week after that she started telling lies about me at my old job.  She told them that we started dating while I was working there, which simply wasn’t true.  I asked her out after my last day there.  It was exactly why I decided to go for it.

Two weeks ago I come into work just like any other normal day and boom.  My boss rolls in with a lady from hr.  They start throwing out some really messed up accusations at me.  It was a real treat.  They sent me home for a week of paid leave.  While they “investigated.”  They never actually talked to me about anything.  The hr lady said she would let me have a background check to prove my innocence.  But of course she never sent me the link to fill it out.

Later in the week I received an email accusing me of being inappropriate at my current job.  Again no explanation was given of the charges.  They finally called me in over a week later.  Like I can’t smell a bushwacking.  I had already chatted to my lawyers and knew they were being totally unprofessional in their technique.  But hey, I was already starting to hate the job.

So I finally met the head of my department.  They decided to fire me for me blog.  As you know this blog doesn’t have my real name on it.  In the meeting the HR lady lied and said that’s how they knew about it.  They claimed that the other investigations were just a coincidence.  AKA I was innocent but they just wanted a reason to fire me.  The HR lady said I chose not to accept the background check and when I asked her why she didn’t send it to me, she admitted that she knew I hadn’t received it.

Overall, it was a boring experience.  I thought getting fired would be an emotional experience, but really my life is already moving forward.  I am mostly just sharing because let’s be honest it’s a good story.  I might start writing more about my experience and talking about where I actually worked later on.  For now I have no heart for vengeance.  I just don’t care.

So my ex girlfriend got me fired from my job.  In the end the reason they gave was that I am doing “work of a sexual nature.”  I make no apologies for the life I live.  I tried to keep my work and private life separate but hey I guess those days are over.

And yes.  I still have a stack of pics of my ex girlfriend.  Will I post them on the internet?  Right now I can’t be bothered.  It’s just a shame that she misunderstood me and decided to try and mess with my life in a major way.  I didn’t even sleep with any other girls in between when I thought we broke up and when she did.

So right now I am planning on moving to Hawaii with Machine in April. It's an amazing, but scary, opportunity.  I just can't wait to see where my life takes me.

I have a part time job at a community college lined up and I will be taking care of my niece tow days a week.  But on the other hand, I had a major job interview at one of the best universities in America.  The job involves only teaching one class a week and a lot of administration.  The money is decent.  The health benefits are insane.  And there is major job and career security.  If I want to continue teaching at universities. 

I love teaching dating science and I plan to continue to build my business here.  But it doens't hurt to have a respectable career going as well.  Just to provide steady income while I build.  This job is looking for an 18month commitment, but they have talked about how I will probably stay on for 10 years.

They haven't officially offered me the job.  And maybe they won't.  But right now I just can't decide what to do.  I don't want to give up my island dreams.  But to teach at one of the best universities?  That's a pretty sweet opportunity.

I can still build my online business after hours.  And maybe even crack out my laptop at work. 

Well I will know by next week.

I haven’t been posting a lot because I have been so busy lately.  I have a ton of new students and I am trying to give them as much time as possible before I move back home.  I will be living in Nashville for 6weeks to 6months.

Nothing is really decided or permanent, but I am just putting out feelers in every direction.  I am applying for uni jobs all over the place.  From my hometown to Oman to Japan.  I am just putting out feelers. My main project right now is to put the Nashville lair back together.  There is a yahoo group that is just disjointed.  I have set up a new proper forum at http://www.TennLair.com .   Hopefully I can get all the guys connected and pour a ton of training into my hometown.  It is gonna be really great to see what I can put together.I am also setting up some new online projects based that are taking up a lot of my online time.  I am working on some marketing things and really just trying to learn how to convert my website.  I would really love to get tons of copies of my ebook out into the universe. I am really not sure where the next phase of my life will take me, but I am trying to take on of Tynan’s really good posts to heart.

I am selling off nearly everything that I own in my apartment here in London.  I want to really pare down all the crap I have.  I would like to be able to pack my entire life into the trunk of a car. I will try to share the debauchery of my birthday party after this Saturday with you as well.

As I am completing my dissertation this week, I continue to try and sort out my future.  As I think I mentioned a few weeks ago, I have been waiting to hear the results from my application for a position teaching at University level.  The place I wanted to work has fallen through.  The position seems to have simply dissolved.  Strangely, they keep giving me part time hours.  This is fine by me as it pays more than full time hours.

I am going to probably really expand my pickup teaching in the next month.  With all this free time coming my way I am really going to try and expand my business and work on some projects with other guys.  The start of Project Rockstar2 is next week as well.

I actually just applied for a cool job in Cambridge.  It would be pretty cool to live near my man October.  His blog really makes me wanna move there!  I love London but I love new places.

Anyways, I am basically announcing that I have nothing to announce.  As soon as I have new job info, I will post it.

So I am working really hard right now.  To expand this blog and my overall business.  I have taught a ton of 1on1 lessons and from that and my own experience I have developed an ebook that I am more than proud of.  It is at the graphic designers in India now and hopefully I can have it all up and running in the next two weeks.  Things are really taking off for me and I am trying to design the blog in a way that is really user friendly.  Hopefully, I can find the happy medium between useful and interesting.  I want people to have the options of digging my posts etc, but I don’t want the little links to be eyesores either.  So during this time I am open to any feedback from my readers.  I am in a phase of expanding my readership again, so I want everything to be perfect.  So there will be little tweeks and changes coming and going as I work my way through this.

I am also working on my other books at this time, as well as some serious papers for my MA course.  I am finding it pretty hard to focus on everything right now.  I am also 2 weeks into my major diet and I think it’s going ok.  I had some setbacks over the weekend, but I feel like I am back on track now.  It’s hard to maintain complete control of my diet.  As soon as I slip, I can’t stop slipping.  So I need to stay super strict.  My friends keep talking me into cutting corners.  It’s my own fault really, but I just have to keep working on it.

So in the end, I am hoping that I can turn this blog and my ebooks and teachings into my career.  At least for now.  I like helping people a lot and I have developed some quality products.  Thanks for your support.  Now I will try to get back to dirty adventures as quickly as possible!!!

Goals for 2009

professional
graduate with merit or better for my ma
become a university teacher
write my ebook
convert it to ipod app
finish paladin seduction web page
finish all websites
finish comedy book
dj in a london club once a week by july
dj in ibiza
get interviewed on tv
build a mailing list

finish developing shane game
sports
stop drinking soda
fight a kickboxing match
run a 5k by July
run a 10k by December
go snowboarding
go to 2 mma fights
compete in martial arts
climb 2 mountains

social/personal goals
see 1 play a month
see 1 opera
see 1 ballet
see 2 magicians
see stand-up comedy 5 times
go to 3 trance festivals
go to a comic convention
go to an anime convention
go to a ufo convention
go to 10 raves alone
watch a movie in every European language
watch all of Fullmetal Alchemist in Japanese
go to a video game competition
go to a strongest man competition
try out for 10 tv game shows
compete on a tv game show
see top 10 Djs in the world
see #11-20 Djs
go to a trance festival in the netherlands

personal growth
take a survivalist course
kill an animal
reconnect with my religion
earn my nlp practitioner
get back hair lasered
learn all 2000 japanese kanji
pass level3 Japanese exam in December
collect 10 new flags
finish Project Rockstar reading list
go out with the Brazilians from kickboxing
ride in a helicopter
compete in a costume contest

sexual goals/expand horizons
go to a fetish store
go to a fetish party
go to a club topless
experiment with fetishes
-vampire
-sub
-public sex
-militaria
-asian
have anal sex
have a 3some (2 girls)
have sex in a club
kiss a princess
kiss a celebrity
kiss a professional athlete
kiss an olympian
explore tantra
video myself having sex
take sex pics

maybes
fight a stranger
compete in a video game comp
tantra weekend
put sex vid on internet

lifetime goals
parachute
parachute halo jump
backpack 1 month in europe

psycho-cyber goals
nice guy
women love me
popular
love my body
deep sense of self
back in touch with my religion
free from outside influence
leader

I have been so busy teaching lately that I simply haven’t posted on this very much.  I have had a ton of adventures that I thought were worthy of writing about swirling in my head, but now that I’m here sitting in front of a movie and relaxing after a brutal session of Guitar Hero bass playing on hard, I simply can’t think of the best one to write about.

So I’ll talk about how my life has changed.  I just remembered.

I have been teaching at a small East London tutoring school for the past 6ish weeks.  I might have mentioned when I started but I’m not totally sure.  Anyways, the lady running the place is really dishonest.  At a level that I found astounding.  Of course as with any job it takes a few weeks to cotton on to what’s going on.  They are supposed to pay every Saturday, one week in arrears.  As of right now I have only been paid for one weeks work.

The woman always makes excuses about forgetting the time sheet or that she doesn’t have her check book and will wire the money to my account when she gets home.  I asked her several times to pay me right before Christmas so that I could buy presents etc.  She owes me around 500 pounds.  That is a lot of money to men.  It really is.  That’s a month’s rent!  I mean really.  People wonder why I maintain a bunch of non-related jobs.  It’s so I can endure people like this.

Anyways.  After she kept not paying me I decided that jig was up.  I went in Monday to demand the money owed to me.  We had a conversation that lasted about 5 minutes.  She lied probably 20-25 times.  She lied about how long I’d worked there.  She even actually claimed to have paid me before Christmas.  I was like ya a month before.  Stop lying.  She said she would write me a check but I couldn’t deposit it til Wednesday.  Then she asked me to teach one final class.  Which obviously she would never pay for.  I said fine like a fool.  Then she suddenly said she didn’t have the time sheet and still expected me to work her free lesson.  I was like I don’t feel comfortable working in this place.  She actually couldn’t believe I would quit.  She tried to explain that they pay monthly and she hadn’t paid ANYONE for Christmas.  I was like telling me you lie to all your employees isn’t endearing.  Plus the pay sheet is weekly.  I did initial it once.

But this post isn’t about my bitterness towards.  I really don’t care.  I mean I need the money, but I know I will endure.  The point is that I went in and confronted her.  To be totally revealing here, I hate this type of confrontation.  With bosses etc.  I am not exactly sure why, but I am hoping to dig into it during an NLP course in the very near future.  What I do know is that my heart was racing when I rode the train out there.  Even outside the building I almost turned back.  There was a part of me that was like just forget it.  Delete her number and accept your losses.  Even if this horrible lady doesn’t pay me, I feel stronger.  I went WAY outside my comfort zone.

I texted all of my friends while I was waiting.  I was having so much anxiety.  It reminded me of the AA I got last year when I started.  I still get hit that hard these days during day game a lot, but I am used to it, so it’s not as visceral.  It was so think I couldn’t try to face it.  I just did what I had to do.

I will let you know if she actually pays me on Friday like she promised.  Before I left she was trying to say that she owed me 1 weeks work instead of 1 month.  I honestly just want people like that as far away from me as possible.  There is nothing I dislike more than dishonesty.  It’s a sticky thing in my opinion.

And if it costs me a few hundred pounds to escape that kind of karma then I am happy.  I have a lot of flaws but dishonesty is not one of them.  I mean I do lie. I wish I didn’t.  I usually do it when I am avoiding making somebody angry or upset with me.  Especially when I’m talking to my dad about money.  I mean I am wAYyyy better than I used to be.  But I just hate feeling like I failed to him.

On an upward note I have a ton of new game students and so far that work is going really good.  All of my former students from the past 2 months are my friends and they are all getting really good and having better lives.  That’s what I really want.  So I still have income coming in.  I am really close to getting a bigger loan for being a student.  As the stress of school is enough for me.  I want that to be my main priority.

Anyways I’m digressing.  I hope that what you learn from this is that even the first thing we learn in game, facing down our approach anxiety, can be very powerful.  Learning to face our fears or deal with our fears, or however you want to phrase it is powerful and useful.

So it’s 1pm and today has already been a lovely day.  I got up at the insane hour of seven.  I didn’t even know there was a seven in the morning.  I got dressed and rushed to my train.  It took me an hour to cross the city and visit the first client with my new firm.  Substitute teaching can be quite intense, even at a language school.

I got there and everything was great.  The teacher had prepared an extensive, but boring, lesson for me.  My agency, the head of the school and the normal teacher all warned me that these students were terrible and really ill-behaved.

They were great for me.  There were three Israeli children and one Turkish boy who joined the class yesterday.  The poor kid was excluded from the constant chatter in Hebrew.  I mixed in a few of my legendary games and just endured the provided worksheets for 3 hours.

I used a lot what I learned from Seb Drake and Adam Lyons today.  I really focused on low variance teaching to minimize the risk of ill-behaviour and when they started talking about religion I cut the thread to keep tensions down.  I ended the class by playing a 30 minute version of the question game in order to build deep rapport with the students.  It was really great and hopefully made the Turkish kid feel more a part of things.

After class the head of school was shocked at my experience.  Maybe it’s just really understanding ShaneGame that got me through.  I was unreactive when the kids talked too much in Hebrew, took too long for their break and ate in the classroom.  I don’t want to be their enemy.  I am a really laid back teacher and I stayed low variance.  It wasn’t as exciting as my high variance teaching, but it was smoother.

After class, I ran some game on different employees to make them like me if I have to come back here ever again.  Then I went out to hunt down my first meal of the day.  Now my weigh in with Hunk last night was atrocious.  He ordered me to start writing down everything I eat again for the next two weeks.  I really shouldn’t have stopped in the first place.

So I kept walking past italian restaurants and hamburger shops.  I am trying to avoid carbs and unhealthy food.  Finally I found a hippie cafe.  I had a lovely sandwich and a fruit smoothie.  One of the ones with just ice and fruit juice in it.  As I  am taking off my tie, I open the lady at the next table.  She jumps at the bait and we talk for 20 minutes.  She tells me about her son that is my age, how she was a fashion teacher in London at a university and about her Japanese religion.  It was really interesting.  She was nice.  I think her son might be a great connection for me.  I am going to email him tonight.

After Adam’s insanely good talk last night, I am more focused than even on developing connectors and pushing my DJ career forward.

I am so busy with posting about Rockstar that I rarely take the time to talk about the rest of my life.  I moved in with Ghost on Saturday.  It’s cool but we barely get to see each other.  He came out last night, but went home before I had a chance to run any sets.  Se la vi. We are members of different gyms.  But he puts up with all of my bs.  To be honest, if I had to live with me I would kill me.  I am basically the housewife, since he works until 6 every night.  I gotta get the food etc.  Because my schedule is more flexible.

I am supposed to finally get my uni papers in the mail today.  Or maybe tomorrow.  I don’t know how fast mail is across London.  I really want it!!!  Once I have that hopefully I can join my new gym.  I start a new job on Friday, but I have the interview today.  That’s kind of backwards.  Basically, when they have work they call to see if I want it.  I would write more but my back is on fire from sitting here at McDonalds nursing a coke for two hours using their free internet.  I might be the only person to ever use the net at this superghetto mcdonalds.

So today was my last day of uni. I had a presentation to give with four other guys. They made me the group leader when we first started preparing several weeks ago. I gave everyone assignments, fought for what I thought was best for the group and generally put it all together. I did the majority of the work because I wanted a good grade. I got the guys together several hours early to run through our presentation half a dozen times and to time everything. I did everything that I thought was right. I was wrong.

During the actual presentation one guy spoke for 5 minutes instead of 90 seconds. I thought the other guys in my group are intelligent, they will adapt. Of course they didn’t. One guy read his 45 second quote. Another guy tried to speed up and did an ok job. I was perfect and cut my time in half. The guy after me. Oh how I hate him now. He just rambled and rambled. Talking so slowly and so boring. Until the professor yelled at him to shut up and conclude. Of course he missed all of our meetings and only showed up finally today. He clearly ignored the rest of our work and didn’t know what was on the conclusion slide.

I wanted to yell and punch all four of them for messing up. But as team leader the responsibility falls on my shoulder. We discussed kicking out the extra guy last week for missing all of our meetings. The professor even said it was ok. But in the end, I didn’t pull the trigger. It was my mistake. When I am leader, I need to use a firmer hand. I should have pulled the guy off stage when he rambled.

But this post isn’t just about my anger and disappointment. Or about how yet again people have let me down. Instead, I tried really hard to do what Soul has been teaching me. He is making me read How to Win Friends and Influence People. The first principle is don’t criticize. So instead of saying what everyone did wrong, I just shook some hands and ran off. I could have been better, but at least I didn’t say something mean that wouldn’t accomplish anything other than making me feel a little better. Life is about progress and I think I did ok today.